A first date where I was trying not to be anxious and he was trying to get rid of all the awkward silences— thing is, I like the fact that we were both a little self-conscious because it meant that what we were doing mattered to us. That applies to anything.
Between the good, bad, and the in-between, it’s been a lot of work. Some of it good, others complete losses, but it is what it is.
We need to remember that everything we do ultimately impacts someone else. What we say, what we do, when we do it… It all matters. In the words of author Jay Asher, “Everything affects everything.”
Just because we like something some of the time or other people are doing it, doesn’t mean that we have to always stay that way or join in with them. We’re far too complicated as humans to follow such social concepts.Yet, we do. And part of me thinks I know why.
This is my fourth year here and college has been incredibly hard for me on just about all fronts. I've grown a lot, yes, but I've also been through a lot. We all have. So when a decision came up this week whether or not to define my time and energy this year by continuing the work I've been doing, it wasn’t an easy one to make.