I’ve been working on a lot of different things lately, from screenwriting and prose writing (which are incredibly different, something I did not prep myself for) to tutoring and redecorating my walls (multiple times). But I have also been forgetting to notice the things that have come full circle.
Just because we like something some of the time or other people are doing it, doesn’t mean that we have to always stay that way or join in with them. We’re far too complicated as humans to follow such social concepts.Yet, we do. And part of me thinks I know why.
This is my fourth year here and college has been incredibly hard for me on just about all fronts. I've grown a lot, yes, but I've also been through a lot. We all have. So when a decision came up this week whether or not to define my time and energy this year by continuing the work I've been doing, it wasn’t an easy one to make.
Two years ago I decided to make it a year of yes. Then it became two years. Then two and a half. Today, in my third year of college and not without a whole lot of hesitation or deliberation, I’m changing my mind. Today, I’m saying no.
Listen to this: there is no way you spent the last 361 days doing nothing productive; you’ve laughed, cried, made friends, maybe lost others... And you’ve survived. We both have. Because amidst surviving, I learned a few things along the way.